I hate how I just naturally seclude myself. Just today at lunch I was called a lone soul, and I thought about it deeply for some reason. Then I realized I don’t belong to any group. I don’t hang out. I walk home alone. I walk to school alone. So I’m sitting there wondering how to maybe begin a more or less social life and a person asks to sit near me, so I say okay, and ignore them for the rest of the lunch period. Why? Why must I instinctively push people away?