I donâ€™t love her. I havenâ€™t loved her for years. She beats me. She loves my sister, but not me. She locked me out when I was 8, and thinks Iâ€™m a â€œdrugged-up slutâ€. I have had drug problems, I even had a miscarriage, but it was because of rape, and she doesnâ€™t care. Sheâ€™s extremely homophobic, which makes it horribly hard for me to come out as a lesbian. She put me in the hospital after choking me, saying itâ€™s my fault father doesnâ€™t love her. Sheâ€™s a cheating bitch and I canâ€™t wait till I can get away from her.